The Bucket List - is a movie I went and seen today. In the movie two men who have never met before end up in the same hospital room with the same news. They are going to die. They write a "bucket list" a list of things they want to do before they "kick the bucket. This is a wonderfully touching movie to watch. It also got me thinking:
Have you ever really thought what you would do if the doctor gave you the final time period of your life? He walks in and says: "We are sorry but there is nothing else we can do. You have 6 months to live, one year if you are lucky."
You could spend the rest of your days going for second opinions, you could try going to other clinics, try different mediations. Or you could go home and try to enjoy your family with the time you have left.
I have had two friends that both took the first path - they spent all the time they had left in pain, sick, tired and in hospitals.
Once we are given the news, we have to make that choice. We have to decide what we want to do. Yes, you will be told by your family to "not give up", "think of us" and all those wonderful and true words. Yet, if you are my age, you have already done that.
I have raised my family, I have been a good and faithful companion and wife to my husband for 38 years. Do I really "owe" them to be sick, fight, be in hospitals? Or do I owe them the best I can give them and enjoy what time I have left?
We never know what decison we will make until we are given that opinion. We can only do what we feel is best for us and our loved ones.
My prayer is that when my time comes, it will be fast and quick. I don't want my family to have to endure trying to be supportive of me when I am going down to nothing and knowing the end result.
My love for my family is shown each and everyday. I want them to remember that when my time comes. I know where my soul is going, I only pray that they will follow and we can enjoy eternity together.
